adj. engaging or ready to engage in physically or mentally energetic pursuits

How do you stay active—or remain engaged in energetic pursuits? Or better yet, how do you stay energetic? 

By all means, I’m not about to answer this question. I don’t know what in particular spawned my sudden radical desire to pursue crazy dreams—but a new feeling has sprouted from this same seed. A strong fear of becoming stagnant—or, to continue my witty use of definitions, becoming motionless and satisfied, bringing an end to this “energetic pursuit.”

In my opinion, “satisfied” is a trap. No one should be satisfied with anything—maybe I’ve let my perfectionist tendencies carry from my artwork into my attitude, but isn’t there always something more to be striving for? You should be excited and thrilled, never satisfied.

I’ll be honest, I’ve let the stress of my first year in college change my attitude. I’ve become unsatisfied with my circumstances—negatively. Money, skills, connections, physique, esteem, opportunities—why do I suddenly assume I should be granted these things, simply because? So, recently, I’ve decided something:

Amalia, my name, means industrious and hardworking. How do you get good grades? Study and work. How do you get that promotion? You devote your energy to working. How do you lose weight? You’re patient and wait for it. How do you overcome obstacles? You focus. How do you anything? The answer is in the question! You do.

It’s disgusting how much this world has become satisfied with being handed things. I’ve been blessed with the ability to be proud of the fact that I have to work for everything I receive. For a year now, this blog has had “Keep on Keepin’ on” as it’s tagline and since then, I’ve managed to forget this simple principle. 

I want to refresh my excitement for what I do—the desire for completed goals, and to enjoy the pursuit again. Anyone with me?

So, here’s to mid-May resolutions, I suppose. And at 3AM, oh my.